Have you ever sat back and thought about how much time we spend in life actually waiting? This has come to my attention as I have spent the last year of my life waiting and waiting for something that may never come. We wait in line at the grocery store. We wait to graduate high school. We wait to turn 21 so we can have our first legal drink. We wait for the mail to arrive, for a guy to call or for a call back after an interview. We wait for our periods to come when we aren’t trying to get pregnant. We wait for our children to come home safely. We wait for exam results, promotions, our next paycheck. We are constantly waiting!
Once we have received all of these things (tangible and intangible) we so often forget to enjoy them and simply focus on the what’s next? I am guilty of this to an extreme. The past several months of my life have been broken down into two week periods. Waiting to ovulate (when I am not on medication, this period lasts more like 3-4 weeks), and waiting to test. Throw into the mix waiting for fertility test results, waiting for my period to come after all of the negative tests, and waiting for appointments, it becomes hard to focus on my day-to-day life.
It is my hope that this blog will serve as an outlet for frustration, excitement, pain and love while I wait to someday hold my little bundle of joy. I hope that not all of my posts will be TTC related (wouldn’t it be great if I got pregnant next month and could just make this a pregnancy blog??), but that some will discuss my everyday life (work, relationships, crafts, PUPPIES). And someday, God willing, this may evolve into a pregnancy/parenting-focused blog. I have always loved to write, and as the stress and anxieties associated with TTC keep me up at night or on edge, I hope that sharing these feelings will serve as an outlet and allow me to come to terms with where I am at in life and to truly enjoy every day as it comes, rather than focusing on the wait and the “what-ifs”.